I never ever had a problem with my body until I dove deeper into my pursuit of becoming a fashion designer. The female body is a beautiful thing, honestly, and I understand why fashion works to capture it like an art. The curve of the shoulders and the arch of the back. However, the only thing I can notice lately is skinny, skinny arms, flat stomachs, and thighs that don’t expand to twice their size when one sits down. And their breasts, by god their breasts! I mean I used to love mine but now I wonder if I should tape them down. (In all truth it is easier to build a garment when there’s less shape, anyway.) But do not misread me, I do love my body, I’m a run-of-the-mill narcissist. Nevertheless, I can’t seem to look at myself naked with out lying to myself (and by lying to myself I mean sucking in my already-barely-there stomach and rolling back my shoulders so as to make them seem less broad and to pop my “booty” out… let’s just remind everyone that I’m a teenage girl and this, too, is totally normal, I’m not depressed and complaining about my body). I’ve just been thinking a lot lately, that’s all. This industry is crazy.
I know I’m not going to be a model; hell, my thighs are different sizes and I have a nine inch scar running up the back of one of them - plus my sexy stare toootally looks like I’m out to kill someone. However, let me explain why I am a little set off: working on my croquis at Pratt this summer my instructed noted that my figures were thick and the chests were too big. “Fashion figures have longer legs and smaller boobs.” I told her that I just wanted to make them look normal. I designed clothes for normal women to wear - I design clothes I’d like to wear. I was informed, however, that the fashion figure sold the garment, and we had to draw clothes so that they looked appealing to, and flattered women. Unless you’re an Angel, models just don’t have C-cups. Oops, so does that mean I won’t look good in my own garments? Does that mean that women have to be that shape for it to look good? I agree some models have perfect curves where they’re wanted (the waist) and none where they’re not (everywhere else?), but I like my boobs and moderately-existent butt, thank you very much, and I’ve got a straight line from my ribs to my hips. It really just got me questioning which system was more flawed: the fact that I’m totally judging my own body and the fact that I’m judging others, or the fact that we are not only selling clothes to the minority body type, but we are selling bodies to the average woman.

